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I loved you, I still do
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Title: I loved you, and I still do

Length: oneshot

Genre: drama (?)

Pairing: YunJae;

Summary: What if the one that you love no longer remembers you? And knowing that you have no one to blame but yourself, for you have been selfish enough that you chose to leave him before he got into that accident, would it hurt?

Author: geenjae

Disclaimer: They're not mine.

Warning: I was pretty much feeling down when I wrote this. And since I had no pen & paper that time, I typed it on my phone instead XDDD




-Jaejoong’s POV-

This man beside me is crying like a lost kid right now and it seems like my heart is being ripped apart just from the sight of him being like this. I shouldn’t have asked him such a question…

“Yunho, what if the one that you love no longer remembers you? And knowing that you have no one to blame but yourself, for you have been selfish enough that you chose to leave him before he got into that accident, would it hurt?”

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His name is Jung Yunho; an annoying 23 years old businessman.

I’ve known him for only 3 months but he’s already in my ‘people-to-ignore’ list since I met him. He’s been nothing but annoying and clingy and whatever to me since he laid his almond-shaped eyes on pitiful me!

Argh.

But unknowingly, I got used of having him around, following me like a stray puppy. I doubt he’s able to finish any of his work back in their company – Jung Corporation. Instead, he’s always in my office, helping me out with our company’s work – Kim Conglomerates.

And I’m thankful for that.

Although he’s annoying and such, no one can deny that he’s still a good guy. He’s nice to everyone, always mindful of others, takes care of me like I’m some kind of kid who’s very attached and dependent of him. And the way he looks at me… he looks at me as if I’m the rarest and most precious gem that he’s lucky enough to even look at. But whenever he glances at me, there’s a glint in his eyes that says that there’s something more; that he’s afraid of losing me… again?

Maybe I’m already so attached to him and that caused this sudden pain I’m feeling right now.

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He’s still crying and I don’t think he’ll stop any time soon. I can’t blame him, though. According to what he said, he lost the man that he loved without being able to tell that person that he loved him back. Maybe saying he ‘loved’ that person is wrong since Yunho still loves him.

Knowing that he’s into men didn’t make me feel any bit disgusted at all.

But why?

“I didn’t really lose him physically, you know,” he whispered. “I would’ve accepted it more if he died. But he didn’t. Instead, he forgot about me. My name, my face, my voice – everything. He also forgot about the love he was offering to me and me alone.”

“Yunho…”

“What’s worse, I was too stupid back then and just ignored him and everything he’s offering to me.”

He’s a total mess, all because he realized his love for that certain man a second too late.

I want to help him, but how can I? I have my own glitches that only my family, relatives and close friends know. And if I told him about it, would he feel any better? Better because, just like him, I lost something… important…?

My memories…

“Hey, Yunho, listen. I have a secret about my past that I want to share with you.”

With that said, he looked at me, wide-eyed like he just saw a ghost. Was he that surprised that I’m opening up something like my past to him? Yah, I’m not that cold, Jung Yunho. I know what ‘give and take’ is.

“Wh-What is it?” he stuttered.

“I… I can’t remember them,” I said, a little embarrassed at first but I managed to say it with slight confidence.

I looked at him and I can tell that I only made him feel worse. So much for trying to cheer him up.

“I’m sorry. I’m really sorry” he whispered, holding on to my hand with his head down.

“Hey, what’s that for? Come on, it’s been a year since the incident. All I’m thankful for is that, at least, I didn’t lose anyone while I was in a coma. And with the help from Yoochun, Junsu and Changmin, I was able to remember who I really was before the accident.” I tried to laugh it off, but Yunho’s grip on the hand only tightened.

“I love you” he said, looking deep into my eyes.

“Yah, Jung, that’s totally ruining the mood, don’t you think?” I arrogantly told him.

“I know. But I love you! I really do! I have to tell you now or I won’t be able to forgive myself. You’re the man I’m in love with. You’re the man who lost his memories and no longer remembers me. You’re the man who’s offering his love for me. You’re the man whom I ignored but I love with all my life. If only… I was able to tell you earlier…”

“I know.”

“Wh-What?”

“I said ‘I know’. All this time that you’ve been bothering me, I was able to remember who you really were. I talked to the others about this and we decided to act as if I would never remember you again. But Yunho, you have to know, I really loved you.” He smiled sadly at my last statement.

“So, you do remember me? And you really did love me?” he asked, voice shaking.

“Yeah, I do. And I really did love you.”

He nodded, but kept his gazed on our hands, still intertwined, instead of looking at me. I leaned closer to him and whispered…

“And I still do.”

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END.

***Sorry that's it's so short! I'll do better next time T.T***



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for a moment i thought it won't be a happy ending, glad jae still remember. 2nd chance is hard to get, yun better cherish it.

i agree *nods*
thanks for reading!

Yun should cherish the 2nd chance that jae had give him. It really hurts when the one you love don't remember you. Love it! Thanks for sharing!

Broke my heart...life is too short to take anything for granted. Looooove it..thankyu *hug*

thank you for reading~
*hugz back* XDDD

i thought jae will not remember yun!!
glad he did remember yun!!
smart way to make yun confess to jae!!

hehe.
thank you^^
i'm actually thinking of making a sequel, but i don't know yet...
thanks for reading, btw^^

Read this made me smile! Thanks!
I loved it! ^__^

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haha.
i'm always making yun the bad guy in my fics... i wonder why XDDD

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yeah, i guess that's it =DDD

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